frustration
I am really getting frustrated by my doctor. I am still bleeding like a stuck pig...sorry Jimmy...and he really doesn't seem to be worried about it. I talked to Fionnuala tonight and she said that if my levels are already at 37 that they probably wouldn't do a DNC...but she also said that I shouldn't still be bleeding!!! ARRRRGGG! It is making me tired and somewhat depressed. I am a bundle of hormones!!
Regarding the miscarriage....I am sad. I know Aim that you say "you didn't know you were pregnant and that it wasn't a baby"...but it was. I really would like another one....its Chris that is iffy. I understand his iffyness...my health...no room, etc. but it would be nice for Griffin to have a little brother or sister. I guess I really never thought that much about it until this all happened. And really this all could be the 21 freaking birth control pills I took in 4 days talking and not me. But I guess going through this really makes you think about a lot. To know that me taking the methotrexate 2 weeks before our Vegas trip caused this is also hard. Jeesh....I am depressed just reading this.
On a little bit lighter note...poker was at our house and I actually played a couple of hands. Then they switched to these Guts games and I lost it all. The pot got up to $ 680.00 bucks which is the highest it has ever been. They all say it was the beer. So I guess since everyone will be gone again next weekend it will be here again. Which is cool....maybe I will be the big winner next week.
Not looking forward to my birthday. Received a gift from Uncle Mike today...sorry Aim...and it sucked. I didn't open it because I knew it would just be Avon or some other crap and it was. Why bother if your not going to put any thought into it? I would have rather gotten a card then something I will never use and will eventually sell in a garage sale! I know Mom and them will just give cash...which is fine by me. Thanks Amy for your gift. I haven't started it yet...Harry Potter was calling me first. I will hopefully have it finished so I can bring it to you in FL.
Well late and must get to sleep. Love to all.....
posted by Chi-Town Okie at 12:17 PM
5 Comments:
HUG!!!
5:10 AM
I was just trying to repeat what you had been saying the whole time before you knew for sure. I don't really know how to react. I do know that I hate everyone telling me how dumb it would be to not have a baby because of my health, no room, and no money so I will not say that to you. If you feel the need, then do it. We are sad and wish that we could be there to cheer you up. You need a Kaelie STAT. Believe it or not it is frustrating to me that you are going through all this. You know, sister kismet, I feel your misery. I think some of it is also that Megan is growing up and you will be with just Griff soon and that makes you sad. . .so you want two little ones to grow up together. Makes sense. I wish I was strong enough to overcome my health issues and try to have a baby because I know greg still wants one in a way. Maybe someday. You know you can talk to me. . .you just don't seem to want to. Talk to someone, don't just be depressed. Even though I have never been where you are we did have a few scares with Kaelie in my belly, so I sort of know. Lots of love and go see Wedding Crashers you will laugh.
7:39 AM
Scary thing is both your comments were at a crazy early time in the morning....Jim--why in God's name were you up at 5:10 and Aim--with no kid in the house why were you up at 7:30????
10:04 AM
I am a single male...not dating anyone, without employment...what else do I have to do at 5 in the morning but give out online hugs?
11:36 AM
ah, forgot about that. :) Thanks
8:28 PM
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