Cougann's, play practices, surgery & choc milk

So not to beat a dead horse...but Cougann tryouts are next Friday!!! I have gone through so many emotions about this. From "she may not make it" to "she will definately make it" and then don't even get me started on the "what ifs" All I know is that she really wants it. She has worked really hard and has now brought her grade point average to a 3.3 so who knows. Teacher evaluations makes up some of the points on the try outs. Granted she screwed up in class but she always manages to realize her screw up...with some help from me...and turn it around. I don't know how the teachers will rate her. Some may hold resentment and state that she is unresponsible...but then some may see that she is hard working and does do good work. Damn this is stress. Results are at 7 p.m. next Friday the 31st ....so I will let everyone know. Is it petty to ask for a little prayer?

This week has been pretty hectic. Play practices every night. Megs is in the junior high production of "Once Upon a Matress". If anyone would like to see the play it will be playing April 1st at the junior high. I think it will be a great play...a really big group of kids and many of them are really talented. I am kinda upset that Meg didn't get the part she was going for....since one of the teachers and all of the kids said she should get it....but with try outs next week and all next week is performance week for the play maybe it was for the best. All of the elementary schools come and watch the play. So by Saturday night...they should have it down!! I am really happy that my dad will be here and able to see it. Meg is nervous about that. She is also nervous for my dad to meet Keifer. I wouldv'e thought she wouldv'e been more nervous for him to meet her dad...but whatever.

As for the surgery....went to the ortho and he said "guess what! your teeth are straight, but the braces aren't going to help the overbite and if we take the braces off...overbite will still be there, so I recommend surgery" Damn. Those are not the words I want to hear. Jaw surgery is not fun. Chris had it about 7 or 8 years ago...upper and lower. Which mine would only be the upper I think...but still it is a 2 day hospital stay and then Chris said he was literally on pain pills and not even knowing that he was alive for 10 days. Then his jaw was wired shut...not sure if mine will be...although if it is weight loss may be a good thing. Now the surgery doesn't scare me...okay maybe a bit....the scary part in all of this is...WHO WILL DO MY JOB??? Who will file the insurance so that the money continues to come in.? Who will do the day sheets and post everything? Not to mention, Who will watch my kids??? So a bunch of worries and thinking. I guess I will have time though the surgeon couldn't get me into his office until May!! Really don't want to do this in the summer. Or early fall since we have Disney in October. No fun. I swear I would have 10 more children than have to go through this!!!

Now for the choc milk. This morning Griffin, not wanting to wake me, tried to pour his own choc milk into his bottle...don't start on me with the bottle!! He choose to do this big boy thing right on my living room carpet!! Oh yeah, did I mention I had my carpets professionally cleaned on TUESDAY!!! I was sooooo angry!! I yelled and said he was a bad boy and he just sat down cried and said "not a bad boy momma" which made me feel like shit. Then Chris comes out and is like "I don't see why you are so mad" I am thinking of the $ 270 bucks I just paid to have the carpets clean for 2 freaking days!!! I know he was just trying to be a big boy and I am proud of him for being independant....but come on...throw me a freaking bone here!!

Either way...really looking forward to crop night at Jeri's. Need to get away from children, house, etc. Only wish we could drink....don't check my big cup....who knows what will be inside!!!