Sleepless nights

Last night was hell. Griffin woke up about 1:00 a.m. not being able to catch his breath. Not sure if it was his asthma or his croup that he always gets but it was bad. Luckily we still had some albuteral and predisone from his last battle. We got that down his throat and finally he started to breathe--still gasping but breathing. He fell asleep on our bed and woke up to do it all again around 3:00 a.m. This time we sat in the steam shower with him and it seemed to work for a little while. He did finally go to sleep and slept until 7:45 a.m. when a patient called with something in his eye!! Needless to say Chris & I were very tired. He does seem to be doing better tonight.

Chris' grandfather is doing great. I went and saw him on Friday and he knew who I was and Griffin loved playing with pa pa's wheelchair (vroom vroom). Grandma moved into assisted living and has so far spent 2 nights there. Chris' mother, of course, left town leaving us and others to drive grandma to see grandpa. I just don't think after the week I have had I wouldv'e left my parents in the state they were in. I mean a week ago we didn't think Grandpa would be here!! I guess I am not a selfish person. That was ugly to say and I am sorry. I love her but sometimes.....ARRRGGG

Our employee supposedly is being weaned off the vent. So hopefully she will pull through. Chris interviewed someone this week and I really don't know if we should hire her or not. I know it would make his job easier, but when our employee does come back we can't handle 3 full time employees. I mean we probably could but some job duties would be switched and feelings hurt....and a bunch of crap I really don't have the energy to deal with.

Now onto Megan. I just don't know what I am going to do with that girl!! She drives me bunkers. I know she is smart and can do work but chose not to for the first 3 weeks of school. I haven't seen that she has brought the grade up very much and I am worried. I don't want her to miss out on a family vacation in Disney, but she may. It honestly doesn't seem like she cares all that much if she does miss it. We go Tuesday to the open house to meet the teacher who probably doesn't think all that highly of us. I mean what kind of parents are we to allow this to happen. My answer is trustworthy ones. We trusted Meg when she said she was doing everything she should be doing. Big mistake. Now there is always doubt. Chris takes it to the extreme and doubts everything the child does. I don't think that is right, but we have been burned before so maybe he is doing the right thing. I just want both of my kids to do the right thing. I want more for them than I ever had. I don't want Meg to miss out on college and be pregnant right out of high school. I want her to live her life. I never had the opportunity to be a college girl and party and stuff. Not that I want her to party but I do want her to have fun. Teenagers have to be put on this earth to remind you on how awful you were as one.

Well I will close for now. Hope all is well where ever you are.