Hey there everyone!! I hope everyone's summer is super so far...mine is pretty good.

I thought I would take this opportunity to discuss some fears I have been having lately. I am sick again. I have been taking my meds religiously and nothing seems to work. I know I will have to go back on the shot which sucks. No more drinking, no sun= no fun!! I know that this is happening again and I am out of remission because my joints are so painful lately. The last 3 times this has happened it has only been my hands....but this time it is my hips, knees, elbows, feet, ankles, etc. I am walking like an old lady because it is painful to do so (Kim--will try my hardest to go to the zoo on Thursday, but seriously may need a wagon for me!). I am trying not to bitch about it and work through all the pain...because it is painful....but it has been difficult. I haven't told anyone...except Chris & Meg of course...and I see it in Chris' face that he is scared too. All I want to do is be in bed. I can't even lift Griffin up onto the changing table. Its bad this time. Just bare with me and keep in mind I really don't like to talk about it because really I don't like to be a whiner and I can be bitchy. I have called the doc and supposed to go early next month.

Things with Meg are good. She did great at graduation and finished up the year pretty good. I am worried about next year. She really needs to keep those grades up so she can come to Disney with us in October, try out again for Cougann's and get her car next summer. Bad grades=no car. Chris & Meg seem to get closer when I am feeling bad. The other night they were on the computer for a while looking at cars. Did I tell you guys that he wants to get her a freakin' Porsche Boxster....mind you a used one that has been wrecked and they rebuilt...but still. Men. She is having issues with the new boyfriend and him saying one thing and doing another. I say dump him and be single. Camp in 2 weeks and can come back with a clean slate. I will miss her when she is gone. I don't realize how much she helps until she is not here helping. I guess that is why I spoil her. She may not clean up all the time and stuff...but she does help out in other ways.

Griffin has been a bear lately. I am not sure if he senses that I haven't felt 100% but he is really pushing all my buttons lately. This morning I had a minor panic attack. I went to the bathroom and came out and he was no where to be found. I mean no where. I screamed outside nothing. I looked for like 10 minutes before way back in the woods I see a little blonde puff of hair...there he was. I swear I couldn't breathe!! I am sure the neighbors think I am mom of the year sense I was screaming my head off looking for a 2 year old. Needless to say I called Chris and said "your car can wait we are getting a fence" (by the way Kim...if you can get me the number of your fence guy I would appreciate it). On another note he has been wearing big boy underpants for 2 days now. Not for long but a few hours at a time. He ran through the house screaming "me have to pee pee" and I gotta say seeing his little spongebob butt running was the cutest thing ever!!

So I guess that is all I should say now. Thanks for letting me be a sounding board....and not mentioning it.

Oh yeah, Big Whoop Whoop for Kim and Griffin going to school next year 4 days a week!!!!! The angels are singing with their harps softly in my ear!!!