I am less weird then Kim...ha ha ha

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...But too damn weird to do anything about it!

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Random thoughts.....

Motherhood is a bitch. There I said it. We all go through life wanting our kids to be happy...or at least I do, not sure about my mom. I can't stand to sit and watch Meg go through all this boy drama. I mean really doesn't she have enough on her plate. I really want her to forget about boys for awhile, focus on school and just really enjoy her high school years. They go by in a flash. Then is college and the real world. There is such a huge world past Ada High for her. Somedays I want her to move on from Keifer...then I see her eyes and think, wow there is something there. Someone asked me if I thought it was me wanting the relationship so bad...and I don't think so. There is love, granted teen love, but love the same. I just hope she continues to make the right decisions in life as she has so far. Do not compromise your position in life and your thoughts and dreams for anyone. Your values are what is important and I know that she is walking on the right path right now. I hate to sound cheesy...but I hope she dances. All I want is for her to feel life. Live her life for her.

There that said. Things are finally moving right along now that Griffin is back in school. I am finally making head way on my back log of follow-up at the office. I just hope the money comes in fast. My not working consecutively really put a damper on the finances. Coming up with money to pay the expenses is getting tough and really stressing me out. Chris is trying to not let things bother him, but I know that my stress is getting him stress. I know not everyone understand what it feels like to be the one person that holds control of the money. But really that is me. If I don't do my job....no money and when I say no money...I mean none, zip, nada. Kim, I know you get this. Been pretty stressed lately and hope I haven't let it show.

I am really glad I went to bible study and really hoping that spiritually I get the "catholic chip" off my shoulder. In the words of the Jackson 5 "One bad apple should not spoil the whole bunch"...at least I think that is a Jackson 5 song. Either way, it is good to even just have the fellowship. I still may not be a religious zealot, but it is doing me some good to sit down and meditate and have some deeper thoughts than "did I run the dishwasher".

I also want to give a big hug to all my great friends. The past month has been an adjustment for me and thank you. I know that I can count on each of you in November.

I am glad that my niece and Griffin are finally working through their differences. I know she is a great kid and I am so lucky to get to have her back in my life. I really felt I was missing out on a lot. Oh yeah, you too Aim...ha ha.

All in all life is good...if I just keep swimming.