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So I am dealing with teenager bullshit. I can't believe Meg sometimes. She is soooo boy crazy. I am really afraid that she requires boys attention to make her feel worthy sometimes. I worry about that. I still have no idea why she has self-esteem issues. I never put her down. I have been calling her Budda lately and rubbing her belly because she is soooo thin. Why is it that so many of our teenage girls have self esteem issues? I wonder if there is a book out there that could help her, because it is obvious that I am not.

Then we have Griffin. He actually grabbed my hand today...opened it up...and spit out his chewed up cracker in my hand. How people stay sane is beyond me. Here I am raising a teenager and a freaking 2 year old at the same time!! Chris looked at me yesturday when I was so frustrated with him and said "didn't you know it was going to be like this? You had a child before ya know." After I took the look of shock and awe off my face....I said "but I worked full time when I had Meg....and I also thought I would have more help with Griffin" That shut him up really fast. Its not that Griffin isn't a good kid...he is. Its just 2 year old crap that you just think, I know he knows better but why is he doing it?

I changed the title to my blog. I have this great quote book for scrapbooking and I found one that I liked. It was getting hard to figure out just one word of the day. I thought this one sounded perfect for a journal.

I am really looking forward to this weekend. Saturday a whole day with no kids....at least I think so. I am trying to find somewhere for Meg to go...but I guess she could go with if she needed too. We are even going out for sushi!! Woo Hoo. Also looking forward to next weekend. It will be good to get away from here. I know Aim you don't have it easy but trust me when you guys move here....I will gladly keep Kaelie for you so you guys could at least get away overnight.

Well millions of things I should be doing instead of this....such as napping. Take care of yourselves.

Joy

I haven't been on in awhile and I apologize....been pretty stressed what with Mom and her crap about moving, work and never having enough time to do anything, etc.

I titled this JOY because I feel even though I have been bitchy lately...yes I can be bitchy...I still have joy in my life and heart. I have great friends that understand and yes even put up with my crazy family. I have a great trip to Chicago coming up....which although I won't be seeing family I will be thinking of them. I have another awesome trip to Orlando coming up and really am starting to get excited about that one. I can't wait to show you guys everything. Chris is calling me Tour Guide Disney. I just want to make sure that I show Kaelie all that there is and see the joy in her eyes. It is always great to see Disney through a kids eyes. And believe me we are all kids there. I bet even Greg becomes childlike there.....well maybe :)

I am worried about one of my good friends. I feel HE is depressed and not talking to anyone about it and staying holed up in his apartment feeling sorry for himself. I am worried that he is just waiting for his "union" to call him for a new job and not thinking that he may need to switch professions. I am however still very proud of him and his "delivery" job. I still worry and even say a little prayer for him everynight...I know that seems weird me saying prayers but I just think of them as thoughts....so God might answer them if he doesn't think they are from me :)

Friday night we have a co-ed poker tournament. I will die if I am the first girl out. I know there are others that have never even played poker so I have a good chance of getting up there. I have been brushing up by playing online. I want to be the final girl in!! Saturday is moving day. I called Uncle Mike tonight and told them that they owe Chris & I big time. I feel like they don't even care about Grams sometimes and then I talk to them and realize they do and they appreciate what we are doing for her....but, anyway.

It is interesting that Uncle Mike does ask about Kaelie and you guys even though he doesn't show it to you. Anywho...that whole family is wacko.

I just reread this and doesn't make anysense so I better get off here until another time.